This is the month of "Thanks giving". I am usually not one to do a list but lately I have been feeling a little sad. For lack of a better word. About a year ago I finally got the courage up to meet with a counselor. (Okay, really I cried my eyes out at a routine doctors appointment and my wonderful doctor, Dr. Gustin, listened to me and said, "there is someone I want you to meet.") I did have to get my courage up every time after that first visit to go visit her again. For some reason I always thought I could be tough and "work things out myself". I learned sometimes you need some one to validate your feelings or to let you see the reality of the situation. She helped me to free myself from the doubting, too tough me. It wasn't until I met with her and told her of the my past 5 years and all that they entailed that I felt successful with all that I had accomplished. She looked at me as a someone that was resilient and a "survivor". Where I had always looked at myself as a barely keeping my head above water and well to be blunt a fraud. So what does this have to do with a list for this month of Thanksgiving? Well, one of the first thinks my counselor had me do was write a list of 10 things I liked about myself. Whenever I had doubts or negative thoughts come into my mind about my self I had to pull out my journal and read my list. So, with how I have been feeling lately it is time for a list! So here is
My list of 10 things that I am thankful for at this time of Thanksgiving
- I know I have a Heavenly Father that loves me and knows me. I have an older brother and Savior that knows and loves me.
- my husband Ryan, he loves being married to me as much as I love being married to him.
- my children, I LOVE BEING A MOM.
- my parents, for accepting the gospel so that I could be raised in a gospel centered home, and for being examples to me of resilience and how to be a graceful survivor.
- my siblings for being my friends and confidants
- Ryan's job, it allows me to stay home and be a mom.
- cancer, I know weird, but I have learned more about the Atonement because of the experiences I have had while dealing with family members and friends that have had cancer.
- my country and my freedoms
- families are eternal
- my life, with all the happy and the sad, the easy parts and the difficult, it is my life and it has made me who I am today.
